Thursday, February 9, 2012

Growing belly

I decided to be brave and post a photo of what I look like at 30 weeks. I've felt big for quite a while, but my progress thus far is really redefining big! And to think..... I have two more months to go ... Lovely! Really, I'm not trying to sound ungrateful. I don't remember what it's like to be this far along in a pregnancy. The last time I got to this point was over five years ago. It's amazing the things you forget. She is definitely getting bigger and protesting her limited space. I'm at the point where we go in for a prenatal appointment every two weeks now. Before we know it she'll be here. I'm hoping she is a good girl and sticks it out like she's supposed to.
The differences I've noticed with this pregnancy, aside from all of my others (let's face it, I'm somewhat of a pro at this point)- ummm, nausea...what's up with that?  Okay, okay it only lasted a very SHORT while, but nonetheless, it made it's presence!!  Wedding ring not fitting....huh? sorry, never experienced that before either.  But for some reason my joints are having fun swelling on me this go round!  What else?? Oh that's right, looking like I'm ready to pop ..... now! I have TWO more months.  Not sure how this is going to work out exactly.
But.....I'm really trying to take it all in and appreciate it.  I have had a few bold people tell me what a lot of people might actually be thinking but too afraid to say.  They can't comprehend my courage in attempting one more time given the circumstances with my last two pregnancies.  I can honestly say I just knew everything would be okay.  Not sure how, I just did.  And if by chance things didn't turn out okay, I'm experienced in the field. Not that it wouldn't be hard, but I know I could handle it because I survived it twice before.  I may sound like a glutton for punishment, but I just know there are so many things out of our control. I'm not one to not live my life because I'm afraid of what MIGHT happen.  As hard as my past experiences were, they helped me to grow and appreciate the little things that much more.  I followed my heart and that's all you can do!