Flat Stanley

Our sweet NICU photographer took another picture of Lincoln next to Flat Stanley. She thought it would be nice to have the two to compare and really see the growth. Let me just tell you......amazing! I remember back when Scott and I would ask each other 'Do you think he will ever get bigger?' Well, here's living proof that he once was small, but things are on the up and up! He now weighs 5 lbs 7 ozs

BEFORE

AFTER

Side by side

Truly....what a little miracle he is! We're still working on breast-feeding and hoping for success with that. As for now, the lactation specialist says he basically just uses me as a pacifier. She also mentioned that most likely one day it will just click. Hopefully sooner than later!

Linc Boy

I'm brain-dead....I can't really remember if I've mentioned it before, but if I go days without posting it's because I have a hard time doing a new post without pictures. Sure, I always have my camera in my bag when I visit the hospital. Sure, I have billions of pictures on my memory card, BUT for some reason the picture has to be just p.e.r.f.e.c.t for me to include it on my blog....dumb I know! Perfect as in just right to me not as in technically, compositionally, color and edit wise perfect.

So.......what's new with Lincoln? Well, he continues to be changed from up and down on the liters for his nasal cannula. He was sitting comfortably at .50 liters when they decided to push him a little more and let him try .25 liters. That was NOT okay with him. He became tachypneic: an excessively rapid respiration ~ A respiratory neurosis marked by quick, shallow breathing. When this happens they feel like he works a little too hard and doesn't get the proper amount of oxygen he needs. As a result, they bumped him back up to .50 liters. The doctors are saying that really no matter what his liters are he has somewhat of a high respiratory rate and some babies are just like that. The doctor who rounded on him today opted to bump him up again because his respiratory rate was a bit too high. So, now he's at 1 liter again. I'm quite sure it won't be long until he is back down to .50 liters again!

Lincoln is also being really sleepy again. Why? I don't know....they don't know. It could be a number of things. It could be because he is having a growth spurt. It could be because he is having more pressure on his head. There really is no definite answer. Only time will tell.

He is growing very well. He was put over in nursery b a little over a week ago. They've finally put his feedings back down to a 30 minute period. It used to be set up to be given to him over a period of an hour. He's doing well with the change and has virtually no spitting up.

How much does he weigh you ask???? He is 5 lbs 3 ozs .... that is double his birth weight!

I find myself at the hospital dreading the thought of leaving. I'm happy to come back to my home and family....just not happy it's without my little baby. I know we're getting closer, but there are a lot of milestones we have to reach first. He made a bit of progression and was being tapped once every third day. Well, we've regressed a bit and now it's back to every other day. The point he is at now, it's looking like he will have to have a shunt unless things get better pretty quickly. They usually like to wait until they're 2500 grams to do the surgery, he's 2353 right now. Once he reaches 2500 they'll asess his situation and determine whether he'll need it for sure or not. Another milestone will be his feedings. He has to be able to eat with no dependency on the feeding tube. Occassionally they'll send babies home with feeding tubes, but it's not something they prefer. Also, it would be a big perk to have him with no oxygen needs, but that is another thing they are okay with making an acception to.

We've been working on breast-feeding for a little over a week now. He's actually doing pretty well with it EXCEPT the fact that he's sooo sleepy. He's got the concept down now it's a matter of just staying awake! I've been using a boppy and Scott seems to like to use it while holding Lincoln.

Happy Happy Birthday

This adorable little guy turned into a WONDERFUL man and.....

.....he is ALL mine!! He's still as much of a hunk as the day I met him. I can't believe we've celebrated ten years of birthdays together honey!!

I'm so lucky to be a part of your life.

~Happy 33rd Birthday~!

TWO months old

I can't believe Lincoln is already .... Two months old... In different ways time has gone slowly, but for the most part it has gone by rather quickly! Probably the biggest gift for ALL of us on his birthday was his siblings being able to see him in person for the first time.

We love you Lincoln!!! Can't wait until you can come home and we can celebrate many more firsts with you. You are such a special little spirit and we are so incredibly lucky to have you in our family.

...Siblings...

These were the faces of anticipation....

When Scott and I made one of our daily visits to Lincoln, we found out they had lifted the ban on kids under 14 being able to come up on the NICU floor. The sad thing is the ban was lifted three weeks ago and somehow we never found that out. The second it was confirmed, the little wheels in our heads got to turning and we made plans to surprise the kids with their first meeting with their baby brother.

As soon as we revealed what they were about to do, they couldn't believe it. They were SO excited!!

The only catch....they could only see him through the window. I think that was good enough for them though. Originally we thought they weren't going to be able to meet him until he came home from the hospital.

Truly, the looks on their faces were PRICELESS! Maybe my eyes welled up with tears, maybe they didn't.....I don't know (ok, maybe I do know). We were so happy to be able to do this though. It really was a very memorable experience.

Other good news.....Scott changed his first diaper with Lincoln! Poor Scott, if he would've chosen the diaper 2hrs before he would've had to change just a pee diaper. Instead, he waited, the nurse cornered him, and he got a GOOD diaper with a GOOD amount of #2!

Daddy & Me

FINALLY!! Daddy got a chance to hold baby! I've been trying to convince him to do a little skin on skin, but I don't think it's happening. He was very excited, maybe a little nervous, to hold his baby boy.

Now....if I can only convince him to change his diapers...or at least take a turn. I don't mind changing him though. You'd have to think you couldn't deal with too big of a mess with this tiny one, but believe me he knows how to fill the diaper up!

Lincoln is doing great all in all. He is off of the high flow on his nasal cannula and down to one liter. We should be able to start trying breast or bottle feeding soon. We just have to work on keeping his respiratory rate down. They need it below 80 breaths per min and he can go up to 100 or so per min.

He is in a big boy bed now!!

The criteria for this.....be a certain weight and he would have to be able to keep his body temperature stable on his own. He's doing it! The poor nurses felt a little bad for him too. When he'd have a messy diaper they said they couldn't imagine being trapped in a closed isolette with the stinky diapers he produces.

He is now 4 pounds 6 ounces. He is making huge strides. All of the doctors and nurses are still very impressed with his progress!

So, we have a wonderful nurse in the NICU who LOVES to take pictures. Mind you, she is not one of Lincoln's nurses, but still takes the time to photograph our little babe anyway. Here are some of the fun images she has taken recently.

The nurse who took his pictures said he keep doing the kissy lip face. A bunch of nurses were gathering around him oooing and awwwing. She said he would bat his eyes at them and look around a bit. Yep....he's definitely got my Brown boys genes!!

Into the Water

Can I believe this boy is eight??? No, I definitely can't!

Sometimes I wonder what his future will be like. I wonder what kind of man he will be and what kind of choices he will make.

But then I'm reminded time and time again what a special little soul he is! Scottie was very outgoing from a young age and made himself well-known. The one thing I love about him and hold dear to my heart is how sincerely sensitive he is. He truly has a tender heart.

In no way is he a perfect child, but when all said and done I know I can trust him to make the right choices.

Scottie took a big leap today and was baptized. He was so excited and anxious to have this done. He has been preparing in many ways.

I love the example he has set for his younger siblings, they really look up to him. We are so proud of him for this great achievement in his life and we're so lucky to have him as a part of our family.....

Love you Scottie!!