I was at that point in my life where I needed to make some decisions. These decisions were big and would ultimately mean possibly closing one chapter only to be heading into another. After losing Colten and then having such a traumatic experience with Lincoln, I couldn't help but feel a little incomplete. I really felt robbed of not only a "normal" pregnancy, but birthing process and oh so many other things in between. I've always been told by many women that when that time in your life comes and you have to question whether you're done having children or not, if you're done it's really not a question. You just know. Well, I still had questions which led me to believe I probably wasn't done. I really couldn't fathom having six children, five here on earth to raise. I thought about this clear back in my early pregnancy with Colten, at least about having five. Obviously, we aren't the ones who choose our destinies. And it was no wonder I couldn't imagine it because I had no idea where the road would lead me in my future. They always say sometimes it's hard to understand your journey while your amidst it. Looking back now, a lot of things are much more clear and make so much more sense. I felt if I were to have another baby, this fall would be the last time to try for multiple reasons. Some may think it is a little too early having just been through what we have with Lincoln. But as I said before, to me, this timing made perfect sense. For one, I just turned 33. I'm not getting any younger and our original "plan" was to be done having kids by the time I was 30....hahahaha. I feel complete now. Trust me, I know we're not out of the clear quite yet. I just hit my 25th week and ..."knock on wood"....haven't had any complications thus far. I really couldn't believe how easily it all fell together. Honestly, we got pregnant the very first time we tried. I find it a miracle in itself because not only was I stressed out from a huge move, but I was just trying to finish up finals with my anatomy class at BYU, and was in a whirlwind of extended family problems. This little spirit was most definitely meant to make a presence amongst us! I tried to keep it a secret for quite a while. Even from most all of our family. I did inform one person early on, but this was actually after she guessed it. My older sister found out she was pregnant just a few days after I found out about myself. The ironic thing is we are technically due F.O.U.R days from each other. You couldn't plan that even if you tried! My mom guessed not too many days later, but we chose to keep the rest of the world in the dark. One of the biggest reasons was I just really wanted to make sure things went smoothly for awhile. And who can I kid, people were bound to think I was crazy for not only attempting to have five kids, but also attempt it after our last two pregnancies. Bottom line....You have to do what's best for YOU. And that's exactly what I did. Our new little princess is due April 16th. My technical due date is the 20th, but the ultrasound bumped it up to the 16th so you can bet I'm not going to let anyone rob me of those 4 days!!
I took a self portrait of the belly at around 15 weeks. I can not believe how fast I got BIG this go round. I guess it's only fitting since it is my s.i.x.t.h. pregnancy.
Yes folks, that is pregnancy at 3.5 mo's for me!!
We made the announcement on facebook the day I found out what we were having. I was hoping it would be a girl. Savana's so cute how could I have just one of her?? When we found out I cried. I couldn't believe it really happened.
We took a poll a few days before to see who would be right. It went as follows:
I thought it was going to be a boy. How could it be anything different? I have three boys in a row with an older one besides! Savana really hoped for a girl because she's wanted a sister for years now. Luke wanted a girl because he says we don't have enough in the family. Scottie wanted a boy because he likes to do anything to defy Savana. Scott revealed only that day that he thought it would be a girl (although he said twins for the poll). Scottie decided to say Lincoln, Koda, a Turkey, and Santa had an opinion. His logic was that when it was revealed to be a boy, only a very few of us would be right making his victory that much more sweet! Boy did he have to eat his words!
And this is how we announced it to the kids when they got home from school:
I'm trying to muster up the courage to take a 25 week photo. Gosh I'm HUGE. No joke either. I feel like people could mistake me for full term. I can't believe I practically have another 3.5 months!!
I feel so very blessed though. I don't think I could have asked for a better closing of this chapter of my life. I am able to appreciate every little kick, movement, milestone, ultrasound because I know it's my last. I can't wait to meet this sweet little spirit and introduce her to all of my other little blessings!
No comments:
Post a Comment